Hangin' With The Hallows

A Blessing from above...

As all of you know my father passed about about 4 1/2 months ago of cancer. That was the hardest time of my life. I miss the times when we would talk and laugh together. I never seemed to have any trouble talking to him about anything and he always had wonderful advice for me. He would never let me give up no matter how much I wanted to!!! I miss his smile and also when he calls me his baby. I miss him more and more each day. There isn't a day that doesn't go by when I think of him.

Most of you know that Kevin and I have been trying to have a baby for about 2 1/2 years. We have been working with a Dr. El-Roy, who is a wonderful and supportive fertility doctor for the past 1 1/2. I had one procedure to clear out my tubes hoping that that would help, but it didn't. We tried 4 times to conceive through artificial insemination, but none of them worked. I then got pregnant and it turned out to be a tubular pregnancy, which I had to end the pregnancy. My doctor said that the only way I could get pregnant was through in-vitro fertilization. He said that with my tubes being so damaged, I would probably continue to have tubular pregnancies. I thought that was the worst time in my life. I remember talking to my father about losing the baby and he told me not to give it, that I was suppose to get pregnant, but it will probably be when he wasn't around anymore. I didn't want to believe him... He has always been there for me and I wanted him to be there for my little one.

After our conversation his condition got worst and he was having a terrible time eating, sleeping and getting around. I could slowly see my father leaving us. A week before my father passed away I had to go in for surgery because the doctor thought the pregnancy was still in my tubes and he had to remove it. I had the surgery and a week later my father died. I remember talking to him in the emergency room and telling him I was angry at God for taking him. He said "don't be angry at him, it is my time to go." I asked him if he was scared and he said " no I am tired and ready to go". I remember whispering into his ear that I love him and it was alright to let go! I would make sure to take care of everyone. I spent the whole weekend with him until he gave his last breath. I never felt so alone then at that very minute. I lost my dad and also my best friend.

Now it was my time to be strong for my family, because that was how my father was. He was always the rock of the family. With the help of my friends I was able to get through this tough time. I know that my father will always be in my heart and soul.


Well..... my father was right about me getting pregnant..... A month after my father passed I got pregnant. I remember taking a pregnancy test and it coming out positive. I sat on the edge of the toilet in shock and then started to cry. When Kevin got home, I showed him in the test and he was in shock also. We weren't as happy has I think most couples are. We were afraid that it was going to be a tubular again. But has you can see from the pictures below it wasn't and we expecting this blessing July 1, 2010, which happens to be the same month as my father's birthday and Kevin's birthday.

I remember my dad saying that things happen for a reason and I never understood that until after I became pregnant. God has a plan for all of us and we just need to try and follow it. We probably won't like some of the bumps in the road but that is life. If we traveled on a straight and flat road we would all have a boring life.


I thank my father and God every day for this miracle growing inside of me and will never regret the time I spent with my dad.

I love and miss you every day day!!!!

Baby Hallowell July 1, 2010